Positive Affirmations & Positive Thinking

    There are SO many moments in my life that I have failed, had a terrible time somewhere, or lost out on an amazing life experience all because of my thinking. How I viewed myself and what I can achieve. However I didn't realize that peoples view of me were so DRASTICALLY different from my views because I was so internally negative and self involved. It is almost like I had a complete life block from what my true reality and possibilities were. It had chocked and limited me on actually living my life..

    Looking back on reading positive affirmations or quotes I would criticize them... laugh and say okay there nut case who needs to tell themselves they are beautiful, capable, smart, or worthy?!? The saddest part was that I was so FAR from realizing that I was the person that needed to be telling myself that I was beautiful, capable, smart, and worthy... because I felt like I possessed NONE of those qualities. It took my husband and I having pillow talk one night and me telling him how I felt so down because I felt like I had no direction in where I wanted my life to go, I hated myself and body, that I was a mom but I wasn't living like I would want my kids to live.... I wasn't living like I would want my kids to live!! How is that an example.. my one life calling and job I was failing.

Then something miraculous happened.... instead of telling me some it's going to be okay junk and just appeasing me.. he was actually listening to me...he told me. " Kelsey then change... I believe that you can do anything you want to and I am here." On a side note... my husband is literally the best thing that has EVER come into my life and I am so thankful for him. As he said this I thought here my husband is going through so much yet he had to HELP me get through my "issues". In that moment I knew that I didn't need to know if he or anyone else believed in me.. I needed to believe in me.. the whole time I had been comparing myself or relying on how others valued me without valuing myself... That was the day...

  I knew that it wouldn't be easy to change so much negative into positive over night.. that's not realistic... but I was talking to my friend and huge inspiration in my life, Lindsay, and she gave me some tough love and repeated the EXACT same message I had thought a few days earlier... You can't place your own value on anyone else's perception of you... you have to believe in yourself first. 

   I began wondering how can I start believing in myself... I began googling personal development books... I purchased "The Secret" and "The Purpose Driven Life"... I have read a little bit of each ( I will be reading them cover to cover within the next month or two) and never finished them because I still wasn't receiving the information that was impacting me. Then I began telling myself... look Kelsey you are capable of this, you can do this, and you know who you are and you are BEAUTIFUL! Little did I know those were called affirmations.

    Everyday I gave myself my own inspiration, my own way of admiring myself and it began working. Everyday I felt a little better, I achieved more... until now... today I ask myself what more can I do.. I want to do and be more.. I want to change more lives.. I want to just shed my love onto anyone I meet. I want to live and share this new and beautiful me because more women and people in general should feel this way.

 I have also come to the understanding that because I had so many issues by not telling myself positive affirmations that I had bitterly torn myself apart during some of the most amazing moments of my life... traveling to Greece and Barcelona among other vacations.. I could have made so many amazing connections with people but didn't because I was too scared to reach out. I will NEVER not reach out again.. I enjoy the moment because I love myself!

   So instead of doubting yourself and keeping negativity in your mind.. everyday wake up and tell yourself five positive affirmations... maybe you can't think of five right now.. if you can't start with one... Tell yourself one positive thing about yourself or that you want to accomplish in your life... even if you feel like your faking it... fake it until you make it... do it EVERYDAY! I promise you one day you will wake up and say.. WOW I did it.. I am freaking AMAZING!! I hope you know while you read this... know I love you... I know for a fact I could find AT LEAST five positive things about you or that you have done or do. <3 br="">